Emotions

I'm really hurt and frustrated.

Dun know how long I can continue this way.

Really need God to strengthen me.

I've been too pampered previously.

Gotta learn how to take hard knocks.

-What doesn't kill me, will make me a better man-

Been working a lot lately. From like 8.30am to 9.30pm almost everyday from Mon-Fri.
This is nothing compared to some others.

I remembered that someone once said, work hard in your youth, enjoy later. I used to think that our youth should be devoted to enjoyment instead. But somehow, I don't think this way anymore. This must be what ppl call the transition period from a youth to a young adult.

I'm gonna try and make myself numb to all these emotions.

Shouldn't be thinking too much anyway.

Lord, help me set my eyes on things that are above. Things that are bigger than I.

Like You and me. :)

A story

This story was told to me weeks ago but it turns out that i had saved it under my drafts and so, i'm posting it up.

That day my mom came into my room and we had one of those heart-to-heart chats we normally had and she told me that she came across an article that day that caused her to cry. It was about this 10 year old austic boy in singapore...he had long hair and his parents were divorced and he lived with his mother. They were very poor and the boy will always ask people for food(he dosen't beg)....hence, the neighbours living around the area knows him and call him ah boy.

His mother suffers from depression and many at times, she will lock her son out of the house and so, the boy will end up sleeping downstairs during the night. He will also prepare food and place it at the entrance of the door of his house for his mother to eat. one fine day as usual, the boy was locked out and so, he slept downstairs and this was brought to the police attention. So the police came to take a look and beng scared of the police, he ran away from the police and next thing that happened was, he fell off the building while running away from the police and was found dead.

Why does his life have to end this way? It was the question i ask myself the day my mom told me, and now as i post it up, its the question i'm asking myself again today. Nonetheless, i do believe he's in heaven with God.

Hope this reminds you to treasure your loved ones as life is really precious and fragile as well.

Poem

looking not at the situations before me

nor those that are ahead.

but focusing my eyes on you Lord

is what i should be doing instead.

forgetting what was and letting go of the past.

you're my hope and future

and all that i'll ever ask.

-Rachel-™

I've decided to raise the bar of friendship.

I will not make commitments to just simply anyone

but yet to those i commit,

i will give my all.

That's the way it should be.

I will let go of friendship that are not meant to be

and treasure those who have stuck with me

and can accept me for who i am.

This is not a barrier of friendship i am building,

but simply, to focus my attention on those

who i love and truly loves me.